Summer misses the old summer

I’m stuck in such an odd place. I could claim the case of a Lost Identity but that would honestly feel like a lie. I didn’t lose anything. Stolen is more like it. Stolen by “life”, like real life. The slow monotonous game board that has all the sudden became my reality. It’s as though…

What’s Wrong?

It’s been one of those days/ nights… where I’m overcome by my negative thoughts. Where I’m thinking about a million things yet nothing at all. My mind won’t stop racing but my body lies so still. At the slightest wrong thought or movement I could go into a total panic attack.  This evening my boyfriend asked…

Pregnancy after loosing over 200lbs 

  In 2012, Shortly after finding out i was pregnant, I had a miscarriage around 12 weeks. I was devastated. All the doctors told me “It’s not your fault, sometimes these things just happen.” but I thought otherwise. I blamed myself for being so overweight and in such poor health.If i was healthier maybe my…

Living with Depression and anxiety

This is a very LONG, personal and intimate post. I will be opening up in a new light. Something at first I wasn’t quite sure if I was ready to do but, I think this plays a very important part in my story/ Journey.  Even those who may have been close to me or thought…