5 months later… (My New family, YouTube and a very unexpected Weight loss journey turn

Okay, I know the title sounds a bit grim but these last 5 months haven't been a complete bust. A few major adjustments but not all bad. Very life changing to say the least… For starters, I continue to work with the same family I have for the past 2 (almost 3) years. They consider […]

Summer misses the old summer

I’m stuck in such an odd place. I could claim the case of a Lost Identity but that would honestly feel like a lie. I didn’t lose anything. Stolen is more like it. Stolen by “life”, like real life. The slow monotonous game board that has all the sudden became my reality. It’s as though […]

What’s Wrong?

It’s been one of those days/ nights… where I’m overcome by my negative thoughts. Where I’m thinking about a million things yet nothing at all. My mind won’t stop racing but my body lies so still. At the slightest wrong thought or movement I could go into a total panic attack.  This evening my boyfriend asked […]

Pregnancy after loosing over 200lbs 

  In 2012, Shortly after finding out i was pregnant, I had a miscarriage around 12 weeks. I was devastated. All the doctors told me “It’s not your fault, sometimes these things just happen.” but I thought otherwise. I blamed myself for being so overweight and in such poor health.If i was healthier maybe my […]

Living with Depression and anxiety

This is a very LONG, personal and intimate post. I will be opening up in a new light. Something at first I wasn’t quite sure if I was ready to do but, I think this plays a very important part in my story/ Journey.  Even those who may have been close to me or thought […]